shame

i'm so ashamed of myself. my mum and my sister are ever so proud of me for making it to vet school. i, on the other hand, have been lagging behind since day one. i know i've got so much more to offer, i know i haven't tried my best. what's going on with me? i've let my family down, i've let myself down, yet i'm doing nothing about this.

my mum has spent all her money on me, she's put all her hope on me. i can't fuck this up.